my personal posts are going to be on my main blog now.

everything is combined!

raybabyray.tumblr.com

taking it back to the original set up!

as of 10/4/11

didn’t weigh today.

worked out two days in a row.

i feel like a beast

lets see how long this lasts….

cruel cruel

cruel

people love to be cruel to me.

and i don’t even have makeup on lol

among other things…..

when i think back on situations (relationships)

well, relationSHIP

just that one

i remember it being way more dramatic than it really was. i think of it as a pivotal point in my life where big things happened that changed me forever.

i remember it as:

• we were so incredibly madly in love
• we spent so much time together
• we shared so many moments, so many inside jokes and memories
• we dated for 3 years
• we had solid plans to get engaged and move in together in the near future
• we were so serious that he knew all my family members
• he did something so ATROCIOUS that i had a suicidal meltdown
• he caused me to completely hate myself
• he cheated on me with 3 other girls at the same time
• he ruined my life
• he is the devil in human form

but in reality

• i loved him
• we spent limited time together on my couch, about 2 real dates
• we had a lot of inside jokes, a few memories…nothing important
• we dated for ….7 months? off and on…mostly off
• we basically fantasized about living together, i got him a promise ring
• he met my parents, they didnt like him
• i had a meltdown, but i’ve never been suicidal
• he caused my ego and self-esteem to lower a lot, i was embarrassed.
• he played me, like most young girls get played
• he caused me to have moderate trust/self-esteem issues
• he’s a douchebag who shouldn’t have acted like he did

why do i make it such a HUGE deal when my rational mind already KNOWS it was not that big of a deal? my emotional mind still wants to cry about it and i just don’t get it.

>:D

jstforkicks:

trilldrefromtexas:

brenda-had-my-baby:

jstforkicks:

This whole sex thing between me & you…..I’m ready when you are babe.

This is a 17 year old. Who the hell acts like this at 17?

A socially awkward virgin who is deluded by the mass amount of females on Tumblr who find this cute on the internet but weird in person.

^ lmfao this nigga analyzed me xD really dude ? 

but was he right? lol -___- that was a pretty good analysis.

time flies.

everything from Rose to Marian

everything from Jojo to Ziek

that’s alotta crap.

we talked for hours.

i could hear her in the bathroom that we share

it’s 12:15….

-____-